❤️ @chrissycostanza ❤️ ----------- CREDIT ----------- "So here i am, back but not all fine. First of all i want to apologize for my lack of communication and content, i haven't posted in almost a month but i needed a break. While i'm writing this, i'm not doing good at all and i'm afraid of your reactions, however i needed to make a drawing that reflects how i felt all this year. To be honest i had the first idea of that sketch some time ago when i wanted to do a Past Lives art challenge, and this was supposed to be the art for Personal. But i gave up on that idea, and lately i realized that i needed to express my feelings in my vivid way. I know it's a terrible year anyway for us as human, nothing's doing good, everything's just a fucking mess, i had feelings again for someone for the first time my breakup, and don't get me wrong it was really cool to believe in love again especially in a dark time like this, but i got fool by that person and broken hearted which is one of the main reason i needed a break, but also because some relations i care about just fell apart. As the queen herself said, I had never felt so unsure of myself, unsure of my life, my choices. I felt an enormous pressure and weight, that everyone there was depending on me to get it together and I was failing over and over again. I had really stripped myself down to my last shred of hope. In retrospect it was a death and a rebirth that was necessary, a micro-reincarnation that allowed me to see clearly again, relight my fire, and forge a new path. I felt empowered again, still a bit unsure, a bit shaky, but standing independently. Some bridges needed to be burn and rebuild again, getting people off and in my life, even though i'm no longer bestfriend with one of my now ex bestfriend, i'm still just friend with her, but that's it. This year really showed me what i wanted and what i needed and showed me the difference between the two. I won't expend more but i'm back and hopefully stronger than before I hope you may like this fanart of Chrissy even with the sadness in it, i'll give u more soon" -@art.nyanmaru

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